|Therese's Drawing of Her Family circa early 2010|
|I was in control (or so I thought) - 2010|
The Lord convicted me of my sins of disrespect and total lack of submission and humility towards my husband and towards Him Himself.
In September 1, 2013, the Lord changed my heart, after I gave Him my all and told Him that I was letting go and letting God rule in all aspects of my life, most especially in our marriage.
I repented to God for my mountains of sins which included but cannot all be put on this blog, like:
The "Sticky Note" I gave him had this as message:
September 18, 2013
The Lord is training me and changing my spirit through the Bible and
the books I've read in the past and present.
I can't share with you yet what God is telling me, but if you find me more quiet these days, it's because He has shown me my sins and the error of my ways, and I am mulling them over and repenting for them... and I am still in shock actually. My sins were/are so many! Against Him and against you! What I find peace in these days is my humble decision to submit myself to you, just as Christ ordered: "Wives, submit to your husbands in all things.", and my decision to not work and focus on our growing family. I grew up in a weird household where both parents were not really loving partners (more like competitors or very successful housemates), and where submission would have been laughed at or even scorned (Old school!, Mama would have said. No way!) so all this is new to me. But, I love God and I love YOU, so I humbly resign my desire to control all events in our life, because to have faith in God means to have faith in you, as my husband and protector here on earth.
I want you to lead me and our family towards where God wants us to go. I have now stepped aside. I get in the way (in yours and even in mine) SO many times. I am sick and tired of my behavior, actually. At least now, knowing what I know, I could get rid of it. It was so ugly and caused me undue anxiety and stress brought about by MY desire to control things. (I thought I was just being helpful or responsible.) A huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders just by my mere surrendering to you. Thank God for that! I don't need the burden (which I placed unnecessarily on myself). I want to live long with you and the kids. I am so so sorry, Honey. I have been so selfish... Clueless AND selfish.
I love you, and from now on, I shall RESPECT you and your decisions. Call my attention should I again be out of line. With God's Help though, I pray they be few and far in between or better yet, zilch.
Your Surrendered Wife,
|Therese's Very Recent Drawing of our Family - Fathers' Day 2014|
|A tickling session with Reuben while Reece watches TV. :) - 2011|
|Fathers' Day 2014|
Romans 5:8But God demonstrates his own love for us in this:
While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
P.S. June 17, 2014: In my haste to make this post, I totally failed to greet my earthly father who is now with the Lord. Thanks Papa for giving me a strong sense of what is right and wrong. Forgive me for my many sins and weaknesses against you when you were still alive. Though we had issues in the past, I've always respected and loved you. Rest in peace, Papa. Happy Fathers' Day! :)